Random inner thought

Have you ever listened to a song and it feels so so much related to your feeling then you'll be like, "Eh macam best je kalau dapat buat video dengan lagu ni."

-- Well, I actually did that. Randomly (read: in between my study time huhu) tulah lain kali jangan bukak lagu masa belajar. Such a person who easily get distracted by music -_-"

Hujung-hujung Ramadhan tentunya beri kita lebih perasaan sayu. So, bila dengar lagu-lagu feeling sikit, makinlah bertambah sayu tu huu.

Sedihlah jugak bila dalam Ramadhan busy dengan study. Nak nak pulak exam masa last 10 of Ramadhan ni. Dan setiap kali perasaan macam tu datang, banyak kali remind diri yang study pun ibadah. Kalau study problem macam mana nak bawak DnT ni U_U Moga Allah ampuni dosa-dosa kita dan menjadikan study sebagai alat untuk melajukan lagi DnT.

Usrah last week best sangat bila murabbi remind hakikatnya Ramadhan tak meninggalkan kita pun. In fact, Allah janjikan Ramadhan ni akan datang je pada tiap tahun. Hakikatnya, kitalah yang meninggalkan Ramadhan -- ya, untuk hari-hari yang berlalu, kitalah yang semakin meninggalkan dunia ni.

Dan tentunya kita takkan pernah tahu bila saatnya kematian kita.

Berada di bulan Ramadhan, jomlah gunakan peluang yang ada untuk terus berdoa dan bersihkan diri dari dosa-dosa. Taknaklah jumpa Allah dalam keadaan yang sangat banyak dosa T.T

Pastu masa tengah study tadi bila terdengar lagu Opick ni sedih sangat sebab terbayang dosa-dosa yang sangat banyak ;( Ya Allah, please make us among the muttaqeen.

And this song, eloquently speaks my inner thoughts--

"Ya Allah, we have come near the end of this beautiful month,
and we are going to miss it thoroughly.

Ya Allah, allow us to keep Ramadan alive within us,
in terms of our increased faith,
increased Ibadah,
increased sincerity and increased Imaan.

Ya Allah accepts it from all of us,
every little deed that we could do. 

Ya Allah, our fasting was flawed, 
our prayers were flawed, 
our intentions were flawed,

but Ya Allah, Your mercy is not flawed. 

Ya Allah, grant us Your acceptance
and give us strengths to gain control over our Nafs. 

Ya Allah, allow us to keep our relationship alive
and ever increasing with The Noble Quran.

Ya Allah the primary goal of fasting was to attain 
self-restraint and self-consciousness.
Ya Allah, we tried our best,
but we know we could have done much better.

Ya Allah, accept it from us and change our lives for the better.
Ya Allah allow us to be ever conscious of You in whatever we do.
Ya Allah, make this Ramadan an accepted and life changing Ramadan for all of us. 

And Ya Allah, allow us to witness this beautiful month of mercy again next year,
by Your will."

- Ramadhan 1440H